innocence is bound to run, but don't you touch that golden sun..

Who turned your north into south? Your right into left? Truth to lies? Who let the daydreamings become expectations? Dreams that are slowly dying along with your imagination, turning into dust, who's to blame?
If i could have one brick for one one unspoken word, i would be building bridges by now.. and if i could take away one rain drop for one spoken, my sky wouldn't be so grey tonight..
Pointless it is, but i would, still, do it all over again..
Nothing in this little town is real, except pain. Struggling with it whole your life and yet, you're afraid of death? When you cross that little line between what's called life, and that famous death -it's when it stops, it's where pain ends. So put your fears behind and walk this one and only road.
Where's shadow there is light. When you walk across the line, where pain stops, where there's no turning back, you'll wish that pain never stopped. In time you forgot, it won't last forever. So even if you just wish for it to stop, both, you and me know it, eventually, will.. When you're locked outside from yourself, when only words you can reach are the ones you lost and when finding a way means losing the only one you have left, there's nothing left than to pretend. And you're good at it, oh, you're so good at it..
Pretending to be cold, and screaming inside. Wanting to smash everything that's around you and still being so calm, that's you. Small is the border between punishment and gift of destiny.
I come from where the fire is. One or another way i'll burn. Burn to understand the world. I suffer for pleasure, and i stopped resisting on my way to here. Understanding my own, empty words when whole world is shut and recognizing myself when all the lights are down. I'm feeling my own breaths even though i have no left! And yes,  covered in silence, standing in one place but still moving forward. I can, i am..

..heal my wounds, please?

Every feeling that i get, by every silent move you make. I never thought i would need you to be there, when i cry. I never needed someone to be there. And i can't take one more step, cause all that's waiting is regret. Don't you know how hard this is? Im running from a person i swore i'd never be. Im the one who has to face me. It's the voices i hear inside my head. Am i born to be broken? Someone, please, tell me that im ready to escape. This is not what i wanted. Im starting to miss you again. You don't have to be there. I just miss the person you used to be. So at the same time i have a chance to miss myself. I walked away, and then, when i tried to come back you pushed me aside. This storm that's broken me, my only friend, yea, it's hard for me to understand myself and then, how can i expect you to understand!? It's never enough, no matter what i do. It's all about how much im missing you, and im not supposed to. They say it's possible to grow up, completely. But i have never met someone who did. So no matter how much we try to grow up there's always that one thing that stays with us. Hope. I need to heal the hurt behind my eyes. I have to make my lies good. To move on, and to let go, or i'll fall again. Never thought i'll need someone to be with me in this pain. Never thought that would ever be you. But it seems it's been holding too strong, this shadow that's all over me. And it's all because of that, because i need you to be with me, but you don't want to be there. Why do people sacrifice the inner beauty, that's in all of us? I guess, you're safe within. I've might lost hope in you, but im still hoping for me, and all i am is you. And if that means i have to give away my inside, so will be. Im feeling the rush inside so maybe it is the end. I would, i would fall again, if i just could, for you. Day after day you're messing with my head. All these thoughts are destroying me, so it makes me believe i don't have the inner beauty to give it for you, for us. If you could hear my words would that change anything? Before i go, hear me out, you should listen to me. You never understood my words, and i haven't understood yours, but hear my looks, try and you'll see me. Im weightless again, just before the shadows... Make yourself listen. Make yourself see! Before i go, hear me out, cause it might be late.. You don't have to understand my words, just hear my heartbeat. And you'll hear me. If you only knew how every place i go reminds me of you, and every word someone tells me it's all you. It has always been, all about you. Everywhere i go, only you. They say i would give everything away to be with you, i don't want to be with you, i just need you by my side. To be there. All this im ready to give for you it's not cause i want to be with you, i don't, i  just need you to fuckin' be there. Those words were never necessary, all that was important was the silence that spoke herself, the looks, our tale..