don't let others see you falling, don't be reason of their happiness..

What’s past is past, what’s done i cannot rewind. All those memories i think about now they're all fading away, and as they are i think about all those we could have, but we never will. Those memories are becoming shadows.  And as the time goes maybe i won't be able to remember them, or in the worst case i'll remember them forever. But now, when im aware that all two of us had is gone, i just want to forget everything, but i can't. I just can't put all that behind, all those memories we had, all those words, all those moments... And now, i hate myself coz of that, and when i see you smiling all around i feel kinda happy coz you are, and then when i realise what i've lost and when i realise i can't be happy, i go back to my tears. And i realised people love rain, they love standing on rain so no one can see their tears, no one can see the pain behind their eyes. Im sad too, but  i smile, make jokes it doesn't matter if its all pretending that im happy, in reality im all alone, lonely and on my own. Every single tear of mine is telling it's own story. But if you're brave, you'll stand on the rain with an umbrella, and hold back your tears ;)

its me on the picture