ne uklapas se u okvire ove stvarnosti, ili to samo ne zelis?

-''Nikada zapravo nisam došla do kraja. I nije mi ovo samo donijelo vrijeme, mi jesmo. Nesigurno, a istovremeno, puna čežnje, dotaknula bih granicu između samoće i apsolutno ničega. I sve ono što mi je bilo nešto, postalo bi ništa. I svaka sljedeća riječ rušila bi se pod onim drhtavim glasom koji nikad prije nisam čula, niti osjetila. Nisu moje nebo ni prekrili sivi oblaci, nego nešto drugo. Tamna tišina. Okreneš se u jednom trenutku, pogledaš, sve je tu, a ničega nema...''

-''I?''

-''I, ne staneš. Ne razmisliš. Zakoračiš u nešto, bez imalo straha, samoće, osjećaja.. Sve se ponovo izjalovi u nedefinisanu prazninu. I nemaš šta, i nemaš kud, i nemaš kome ni da hoćeš. Osjećaš li još uvijek svaki dodir, sjećaš li se svake riječi? Trošiš li još uvijek vrijeme na neispričane bajke, neizrečene riječi i nedokučene istine? - Pitaš se, a znaš. Osjetiš i sjećaš. I nema veće kazne.''
-''Koji je tvoj problem?''
-''Stvarnost. Ova naša, izgubljena. Trenutak u kome su se maštanja pretvorila u očekivanja. Trenutak u kome šutiš, ali si već razumio pogled. I dok šutimo, mi imamo o čemu, dok  sve ostalo je prazno. Suze ti dođu tako lako i ti prekršiš ono obećanje. Tišina. Samo još možeš čuti kako negdje ispod tebe, na pod, padne kap, i osjetiš razmazanu maskaru na svojim obrazima. Nisi ni trepnula, a već rukom brišeš lice, uvjerena da ćeš time obrisati i sva ona sjećanja koja te toliko bole. Uvjerena da ćeš time sakriti strah koji ti vidi u očima, a ustvari, samo drhtaj one iste ruke, koja je posegnula ka licu, te odao. Kada shvatiš da je to besmisleno i da od tog' trenutka nema dalje, nadaš se onom' starom..Da on ne vidi niti jedan tvoj pokret, da ne osjeti ni jedan tvoj uzdah, da ne umije da shvati tvoju tišinu...I eto šta ti je donijelo ono tvoje vrijeme.. Puna si suvišnih nadanja, pitanja.. Sve ti je jasno i onda kad nije. Ti sjajiš, a u sebi nosiš mrak, ne uklapaš se u okvire! Prepoznaš se u tuđim očima, onda se okreneš i odeš.''

-''Ne razumijem..''

-''Ali hoćeš..''

stop crying your heart out !

There ain't no coming back from this point. From the sorrow she's trapped in.. Anger.. Anger from watching the world on the outside and regret for simply existing, only things that she's feeling.
Long time ago, when she got lost in her own words, that no one can remember now, everything she could feel was missing. Something, someone, somewhere..
''Don't waste time, run, and just forget the world.''-she said. She doesn't really need anything or anyone but herself, she just have to remember, what does she stand for? After all, everyone ran when all she needed was the truth.. She couldn't see the end of the feelings she felt, and others, they were just escaping it, skipping it..somehow, despite the lies they were makin'. She built up a wall, not to keep them out, but to see who cares enough to knock it down. She was falling with every step she took. Finding the way out of the world she made for herself.. And as she was falling down the stairs of life the world was gettin' bigger. It's big enough that only thing that's covering it, is sorrow. Same world, same wall, same sorrow she's trapped in, now. Maybe there were those little things that had stayed somewhere in her mind. So they're the once who were bringing those emotions, everyone else was escaping. But with time, she learned how to put things behind her. So, love sounds familiar but the emotions escapes her. Yesterday, and the day before, sun was cold and rain was hard. Raindrops were falling on her back, but somehow, it was easy to carry it. Not like the pain she was feeling, until the day rain was gone, and so were her emotions. She couldn't feel a thing.
Between the lines of fear and blame she began to wonder, why she came? So she took the first way out.
Leaving everyone sleepin' in that sleepy town.