i can tell from your eyes, you've never been by the riverside.

As you take a step forward, you make two backwards. Your words are inflicting pain to your mind, even though they're empty as the walls around you. Perhaps you want to run, is there a place you still can?
Let's waste time.. Saying.. Thinking 'bout the empty words that only belong to us.
Bitterness, that's filling your mind.. is struggling with the pain, your whole body's made of. I'ts increasing into something bigger, something that's crashing on your back. At the peak of the struggle it disappears and you're amazed of how easy is to, and not to feel a thing at the same time. As time passes, you're not pretending anymore. You feel like you're wasted, and you're wasted everyday.
Looking through the borders, that are keeping you away. You're trying, and you're catching a look that's passing right through your eyes. From the bottom of your body, right through every blood vessel, and through all skin, to your carefree mind you're feeling it. Right before you find yourself, lost again, in a field, where no one is to blame, in the most loneliest night of all. As you keep looking back at the eyes that are giving you hope, you can see a flame burning inside of them. But you'll never see the rest of him, just like you'll never forget a single touch, a single breath, a single smile you saw in all that darkness that covered you. No words, just one touch, while passing by, will be enough to feel it all again, to just remember it all. That one touch from a million others will spread the feeling you once had, feeling of being his for just that, one night, when you felt lost like back in the day. Making mess out of things sounds like you, or is that just something you let go with that time of yours? You'll find yourself in a place where you used to just stop and think: 'Where do i go from here?'. There, where even in the brightest nights, lights are out. Place, where you won't see any rising sun, down by the water, you'll beg to touch the border of a river you'll never see again. There, where everybody goes to be alone, down, where you'll be the loneliest one pretending not to care. You ran and you burned 'till there was nothing left from you. You stayed for what's worth. In the end, there's no where left.. to just.. run away...
Don't you see how cold your words are? You're not bringing any emotions in anyone's eyes.. no one can feel your words anymore. Cold. Empty. Taking breaths away, for nothing. Shut your mouth. Can't you see.. you will kill all the feelings in someone with them. You will simply erase the memories, and leave everyone breathless. Count to ten, and leave...